Thursday, December 31, 2009

the last day of the year

*pejam celik pejam celik*

Its already the 31st of December!

And the last day of 2009 feels exactly the same as as any other day. =S

I pray for a better year ahead... Give me the same amount of hardship if u wish but more strength to deal with it. I will not fear the choices life has to offer, but I need the wisdom to make the right ones. More importantly, give me tolerance and patience mostly to deal with those who do not enjoy the benefits of a full mental capacity.

Continue to bless me with the people I cross paths with that makes a different in my life, in the nicest way. I know I am blessed in this sense. I've met some of the nicest people this year. People who make you want to believe simple because you can.

HAPPY NEW YEAR and have a blessed year ahead! =)

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

where the #&*$ is my happy ending???


I am so pissed with myself for no particular reason.

*stomps feet*

How is it that I try and try and give my best in whatever I do and I do not get the satisfaction I crave?

Monday, December 14, 2009

the year it has been!

Its December already!

And Im at a point, where my life is completely messed up!

The weirdest thing is that despite all that happened, Im smiling. This is weird, this is not me. Im the one who rants and raves and worries like there is no tomorrow. I've always known myself to be that!

And now, with all things that been happening (mostly unhappy), Im still smiling and being thankful for the lil' blessing that had come my way.

Wow! Im impressed; with myself! Im not the bitter bitch anymore it seems. When I told myself that I've gotta live a little more in the beginning of this year, I didnt know how I was gonna do it.

That was my new year resolution. And despite the rocky beginning and the not-so-great ending, it turned out to be a rather fulfilling year. 2009 will remain as the year that I learned to relax a little and not to worry so much. A year that I've learned the pain of loving and losing. A year that reminded me that no matter how good your intentions are, some jokers will misconstrue it for their own benefits.

I've also decided that I'm gonna party so hard on 31st of December. Not because I'm eager to welcome 2010, but to give the apt farewell to 2009 that it deserves.

*smiles... and a little giggle* ;-)

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

on friday this week...

...exactly at this time... I will be getting a nice two hour Thai massage!

Hadtyai! Here I come... =)

Monday, November 23, 2009

the quote i love on love

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

-Neil Gaiman-

Bleeding Heart

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of betrayals...


It's my party and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to, cry if I want to
You would cry too if it happened to you

Nobody knows where my Johnny has gone
But Judy left the same time
Why was he holding her hand
When he's supposed to be mine

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to, cry if I want to
You would cry too if it happened to you

Then all my records keep dancing all night
But leave me alone for a while
'Til Johnny's dancing with me
I've got no reason to smile

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to, cry if I want to
You would cry too if it happened to you

Judy and Johnny just walked thru the door
Like a queen with her king
Oh what a birthday surprise
Judy's wearing his ring

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to, cry if I want to
You would cry too if it happened to you

Oh-oh-oh It's my party and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to, cry if I want to...

-Lesley Gore-

Crying Girl

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Tuesday, November 17, 2009

excited lil' me!

I've been rather excited over many things that are happening around me. I like this excited feeling! It makes you wake up in the morning, smile to work and keeps you focused in dealing with anything that comes your way.

Here is (another) list on the things that are getting me excited now:
1) Roadtrip to Hadtyai

2) Shanghai in Winter

3) Family PD Trip

4) The black ink pen Uncle bought

5) Bukit Tinggi with Yamcha gang!

I like! I like! =)

Monday, November 2, 2009

The Yumcha Hunters!

Date: 30 Oct - 1 Nov 2009
Venue: KL - Kuala Terengganu
Flag off: APD, Glenmarie Shah Alam
Last Stop: Awana Kijal KT
Team Members: Me, Rudy, King and Anesh

Treasure hunting is one of the activity that I've always wanted to do! Amongst other would be driving a rally car and bungee jumping. So a couple of months back when Rudy asked me whether I would like to join the Topgear Treasure Hunt, I jumped at the chance! And truth be told, I've been excited about the trip 2 weeks prior to the day itself. No regrets... definitely No regrets... =)

We started really early! Raja picked me up at 5.45am and we were suppose to be at APD Glenmarie at 6.30am.

Raja, Me, Rudy waiting to get started

Our very own Yamcha car! All ready to take us to Kuala Terengganu

Our first challenge was in Genting Sempah rest area McD! We are given 3 minutes to answer 5 questions. The answers for the question all could be found in the TopGear Magazine.

Waiting for our turn at Genting Sempah. We felt like school kids waiting for exam!

At about 5pm we reached Awana Kijal. We reached 5th out of 50 cars! Wow, not bad for first timers. I was so afraid that we would not make it on time, because the race has a limit of 9 hours and half an hour of grace period where they start cutting marks for each minute late. If you take more than 9 and a half hours, you will be automatically disqualified.

The beautiful entrance for Awana Kijal.

I crashed once we reached our rooms. I hardly had any sleep the night before because of all Friday nights, Homie decided to throw a very noisy party the night before my treasure hunt race!

Dinner and prize giving ceremony was at 7pm.

We won 19th place by points!! Not bad for first timers! We won RM120 worth of petrol each

We went to bed right after the ceremony. Too sleepy and tired.

The next morning, after breakfast, before leaving, we decided to check out the place. We walked around the hotel area. The beach was awesome. Awan Kijal KT is actually a very nice place for a retreat... Highly recommended!

The sea was rather rough though...

We checked out at about 12noon. We decided to head out to Kemaman for lunch. Its not Yamcha if we do not jalan-jalan cari makan on the way eh...

Kopitiam Kemaman - apparently a must-try in the Kemaman town

The famous 3 layer tea. It also came in the coffee variety

After lunch in Kemaman, we headed to Berserah for keropok! A trip to the East Coast is never complete without keropok.

yummy keropok!

After munching down the whole lot of the keropok, we stopped at Bentong town for home made ice cream.

Homemade Ice cream at Kow Po

Their signature dish of ABC + Ice Cream. They also have a variety of other sundaes.

After the ice cream stop, we went on a durian hunt but the durian shop that King was looking for wasn't open. With an already full tummy, we decided to save the durian for some other time... Wise choice, I must say!

Overall it was an awesome adventure!

Thursday, October 29, 2009

where do i stand? (Part 2)

I learnt an interesting lesson on letting go. Its not enough if you only let go, u need to also move on... ;-)

If only u be in peace with the past that you can properly move on though... I know - so complicating but when given some thought, makes a lot of sense.

where do i stand?

The truth is - Kawan is back.

I dont know whether he is back for good or just for a ride. I've tried thinking about it, but now, I'm just too tired... Too mind boggling.

In Feb 2007, I met Kawan at a friend's friend's party. Our relationship was an adventure by itself. We were as different as night and day; at the same time, our fundamentals were the same.

By the time December 2008 came along, we were beginning to feel the brunt of the relationship. There were so many uncertainty - job was taking a toll, family and friends (functions, birthdays, farewells, obligatory visits) were all eating up our time. Having to deal with all this in the highly stressful positions that we were in eventually led to arguments. Some were your regular I-said-this-and-you-said-that arguments, and some were a full-fledged tiring, straining, long long arguments. Being as different as we were, I thought given some thought and time, things would get better. If all things were good, taking some time off away from everything else and talking things through should solve all problems right?

I was wrong. Early January 2009, he said he needed time off. *gasp*
He needed to sort out what he wanted and where he was heading in life.

A month passed by; a month that was so difficult for me. But one thing that was clear in that one month is the amount of people who cared and was there to support me. I have a whole list of people to thank; and that only means that I am blessed. Blessed with family and friends who sometimes dropped everything they were doing to come pass me a tissue.

Thosh was consistently there for me. She met me up after work, sometimes more often than necessary just to make sure I was ok. She also would drag me along for all HER party invites so that I can meet new people (which I did and became really good friends with) and better able to move on. She would also entertain all my late night messages, whining about how unfair life was. Looking back, I honestly do not know what I would have done if I hadn't had her around.

Tansri was a darling as well. The first weekend I was single again, he went shoe shopping with me on a Friday night. I know shoe shopping with a girl is generally a pain for most guys, and most guys would only do it because they HAD to follow their girlfriends. But darling Tansri put aside all weird stares and painstakingly followed me into every shoe shop in Bangsar! And he never once complained. He actually picked a couple of pairs for me to try on! He stayed back in KL that weekend. We went for lunch, massages and at night, when he had to go out (yes, he has a life) he asked me whether I would be ok. How sweet...

That Friday on my first single week, Homie had his birthday bash. And after partying the night away in Cyna Bar, and when we got back, I felt crappy and impossibly alone. Sensing something amiss, Homie came into my room, finding me close to tears. He gave me the biggest longest hug, telling me it is all gonna be alright. It was his big day, but there he was, consoling me, getting tears and mascara on his white shirt...

These are only some of many stories of me being blessed to have such lovely people around me. The one thing that I got from the break up is the fact that I was so loved. I knew my true friends. =)

Friday, October 23, 2009

way back into love...

from Music and Lyrics

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

I am also trying to find my way back into love... But love has hung up a no entry sign at the entrance! Hehe... ;-)

Friday, October 9, 2009

Stepping Stones - School Year End Program 2010

To all those who are feeling generous again!

For those who are interested to donate you may directly contact Ms Mary tel:0322602290, Mr Johnson tel:0163858161 , or Suresh K tel:0122592290.

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Stepping Stones Living Center Sdn. Bhd , 111, Jalan Tanjong 12, Taman Seputih 58000 Kuala Lumpur

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Tuesday, September 29, 2009

thosh's birthday!

Date: 25 September 2009 (Friday) - her actual birthday is on 26 September!
Venue: Velvet, Zouk

It was fun! Its been sometime since I met the whole Disneyland gang... I was in-charge of the camera... and I was happily clicking away! I am not known for my photography skills though, namely because I have shaky hands and am (just a bit) short...

Anyways, decided to post up the pics instead!

Wayne and Suren heating up the Dancefloor


Prabz being Goofy

Joseph, Mac, Suren and Wayne

Billy, me and Thosh

Joseph, Ralph and Prem

Thosh and fren

Prem and me

Monday, September 28, 2009

good bye, fantasy...


I only remember this being a sad day... I never wanted Phuket to end. Perhaps it has provided me an escape to my rather boring, mundane and discontented life. Im not saying its the right way of life... but indeed it was one heck of an experience.

Phuket will always have a special place in my heart.

Ok, enough of sentiments now... time to plan the next trip! GOA HERE I COME! =)

of cheap tom yums and tequila shots!


We took our time to wake up... It was nearly impossible to wake up especially when I was convinced that a rat had knocked down the heavy chandelier on my head before dying in my mouth. The consequences of too much whiskey, vodka and tequila shots!

Day 3 was for going around town. We hired a driver and there were 4 activities we were to cover:
1) Visiting the Big Buddha
2) Visiting Wat Chalong
3) Jalan-jalan in Phuket town
4) Elephant Trekking

Visiting the Big Buddha
The feeling of going into the grounds of the temple is unexplainable. You get this very calm over feeling as you step into the temple itself. The funny thing is that this temple is not at all quiet. It was bustling with lotsa activities and with people from all over wanting to catch the biggest Buddha in SEA in the making.
I walked right up to the top. I prayed... It felt good. =)

Visiting Wat Chalong
Wat Chalong was simply gorgeous! It stood so majestically as we made our way into the main building. I saw a whole bunch of people from all walks of life trying to get their fortune read. Its the Buddhist fortune sticks. There will be a canister filled with numbered sticks. We will have to shake the canister until only one stick falls out. We will have to check the number and then collect the piece of paper with the corresponding number. And that number will reveal our fortune.

I tried it.

I picked up the paper was written in Thai. Such anti-climax! I brought the paper back though, just in case i meet someone who can read Thai and speak English fluently. *wink*

Jalan-jalan in Phuket Town
We drove into Phuket town. However, as it was a Sunday, there were very less people around as most shops were closed. We went to this place called Phuket Square and were just window shopping.

Our stomach was getting the better of us and in no time we were walking around looking for a place to eat. We found the food court. The menu for lunch: Som Tom for appetizer, white rice, tom yam kung, kangkung stir fried, egg omelet and 4 fresh fruit juices. We had a sumptuous lunch indeed! The bill: 270baht, for all that!

We had to cut our Jalan-jalan in Phuket Town short because we wanted to make it on time to the elephant trekking.

Elephant Trekking
I know for a fact that I will never ever do this again. I know elephants are strong animals and in no way I mean to insult their strength. But I cant bear the thought of sitting on another life being, it taking you on a trail into the jungle. Oh well, thank God I wasn't born in the era of the brave Rajas or Kings that travelled majestically on elephants. I would have died of guilt. I know, I know... I am weird in some ways.

Coming back to the elephant trekking - it was quite an experience! It was scary in the beginning because you are sitting on a elephant, several meters above the ground, on a "chair", without seat belts. The image of the elephant running wild and me falling off, with the elephant accidentally trampling all over me and me coming to my unfortunate death in Thailand kept popping out on my mind. *Jo knocks head hard on table* I mean come on, I cant die like that... because, 1) Im too young to die; and 2) It would be a silly story to tell when I meet other waiting at the gate of Heaven, when they ask, "How did u get here?"

The elephant we sat on was female. He name is Sha Noy, which apparently means "Little Girl". Hehe. How ironic eh?

Anyways, after Elephant Trekking, we headed back to the hotel, went to the beach, and came back to the hotel pool after the sun has set.

Apparently there was a wedding reception at the hotel that we were staying at and we were sure creating quite a ruckus at the pool! We tried to keep it as quiet as possible but imagine a bunch of four girls, slightly tipsy, naturally loud, on a holiday! But you gotta give us credit for trying!

After the being chased out of the pool by the security guad because apparently the ppol was undergoing chemical cleaning. I still doubt the truth of it. I think they had purposely put up that board just to get us out of the pool area... Conspiracy, conspiracy...

After getting dressed up again to hit the clubs, we were on our way... Happy happy tipsy girls!

That night I had about 5 tequila shots... All memories of what happened after the last shot was never recollected.... *wink*

Phi Phi Island and beyond...


I crawled out of bed at 6.45am. The van is to pick us up at 7.45am and we are to be off for Island hopping. We were suppose to be out for having breakfast by 7.15am. However, knowing us, we only got out of the room close to 7.30am. We gobbled down as much as we can in that 15minutes and we in the look out for any tourist van.

As we were getting in, we saw 2 gorgeous looking men waiting to get in too. Having the liberty of being completely single, I quickly said, "I chup the one in red and blue!" According to the code of sisterhood, who should see first, should claim first and the others should respect this. Anyways, the others were not all that single.

In the Van; Photo courtesy of the Red & Blue Man

We made another couple of stops before we made our way to Chalong Bay. We picked a couple from Impiana Cabana Phuket Hotel and 2 other men from the Marriott. Of course having us in the van, it was impossible for them to have any quiet moment what-so-ever. Don't ask me what were we talking and giggling about, but at 8 in the morning, it did seem like there was a lot to.

Finally we reached Chalong Bay, and we were briefed by Bobby, our tour/island guide. Bobby was a funny fellow and soon immediately we were friends. As we made our way to the designated speed boat, the 2 gorgeous men was heard whispering behind us, "They are in the same boat with us!" Though I would like to believe they said that out of excitement, but Jes swears that she heard a tinge of disgust in their voices. Oh well, who said i cant be hopeful??

Chalong Bay

There was a whole bunch of people from all over the world in the same speed boat with us, but you could only hear 4 voices of girls. I don't know about you, but when I am on a holiday, I make sure I make the most of it! I try to find humour in everything and as they say, how you react to things could make all the difference. The boat ride is about 1 hour and the way I see it - I had to choices: 1) Be all proper and bear the unpleasant bumpy ride in silence, or 2) Talk, laugh, enjoy nature and take pictures in order to ease your mind off the potential of being sea sick.

On the Boat

Our first stop was Maya Bay. Boy, was I happy to see the shore! The sea was very rough and though usually I do not get nauseated, I did feel it then. The situation did not help with a bunch of them throwing up in the boat. We jumped out of the boat, found a place to put our things and jumped into the water. The water was so blue! Too bad the water was not exactly very clean with floating leaves and twigs. Maya Bay ended too soon... We could hear Bobby calling, "Boat 19! Boat 19! Come back!"

At Maya Bay

The next stop was Loh Samah Bay, there we only stopped to take some pictures of the caves and the greenery. After that, we had a short trip passing the Viking Caves and also the Monkey Bay. The tide was high at the Monkey bay thus we could not get off the boat and see the monkeys. We did however, stay on the boat and feed the monkeys. I am not sure though which species were more amused of the other... *wink*

Viking Cave

Monkey Bay!

Shortly after the circus show, we headed to Phi Phi Don for lunch. I had to rush to look for a washroom once I got down from the boat and told the others that I will see them in the restaurant. When I got to the restaurant, guess who I was to sit beside? Red and Blue Gorgeous Man! Apparently, we were suppose to sit according to our van number and the other 3 have reserved the seat beside him for me! Oh, how thoughtful... *giggles*

We made small talks at the table. The couple from Phuket Cabana completely ignored us. I guess we made her feel insecure? *jo inflated ego speaks again

The men from Marriott are from USA. The Asian looking one is based in Bangkok (his name is Steve) and the other one is his boss who is on holidays (Joe). They were pretty friendly and then Kavi asked the Gorgeous Men where were they from and they replied - Barcelona! Espanyol! It was also then when we realised they were not very good in English... And I don't speak Spanish except for Mis Tres Hermanes and Yo Soy Betty La Feya. I don't think a couple of Spanish drama names are gonna impress them. So there goes any hope of bringing my mom a souvenir from Phuket in the form of a son-in-law. =(

After lunch, we went on to another bay (which I cant remember the name) and we did some snorkeling. Its my first time doing snorkeling away from the shore. I will not deny that I was very afraid... But at the same time, I thought that I've done and experienced so much, wont i regret if I dont do this?

The experience was awesome!! It took me some time to adjust with the life jacket and the mask, but when I was calm enough, I really didnt want to come out of the water! The fishes were practically just beside me!

First Snorkelling Experience

The fishes

The snorkeling session ended too soon and we were on the boat again of to our next destination. The last destination was somewhat disappointing, because 1) Its more for snorkeling and seeing the corals; 2) no waves; 3) no shade; 4) things were exorbitantly priced. I basically slept that one hour there.

We reached Chalong Bay around 5.30pm, all darker and tired. Jes and I were together and we somehow lost Thari and Kavi. Jes and I found our driver and so we went to the van first. The Phuket Cabana couple had taken our seats, so me being me, jumped in the front beside the driver, turned around to the back and told everyone, "Unfortunately for you guys, I am the self elected tour guide!"

Self elected tour guide

Coming back from the trip, we dropped our stuff off and went for a massage. Initially we had wanted to come back, get dressed and head out for dinner. But after the massage, my infamous stomach was already hungry. That night we decided to have seafood for dinner at a nearby fancy restaurant. Oh my! What a meal! =)

After dinner, we headed back to the room to shower and get all dressed up to party all night long! And trust me, all night long was how we partied...

Friday, September 25, 2009


I am just so tired... So tired... =(

I want nothing more in the world right now than to be adored... and pampered.

I miss home. I miss Papa a lot. =(
Papa always knew how to make me feel better. I wish Papa was here. I dunno how to deal with this.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

like never i've experienced before...


WOW! Thats what I've been replying to everyone who had asked me, "How was Phuket?"

Simply WOW! The honest truth is that I don't want to come back. Not until the surrealism fades away. I felt like the morning after I dreamt I was running away from an evil beast in a jungle with Takeshi Kaneshiro beside me, holding my hand. I had that dream long long time back (I think I was 14!), but the memories of it remains vivid up till today.

That's how I feel about Phuket. Surreal.

The morning that I was leaving there was a rush! I woke up at 4am and was suppose to be at Raj's place by 5am. That should not have really been a problem have I had packed and asked for directions to his place the night before. Nope, knowing me, I went out for a quickie dinner with The Boss. Only the quickie dinner lasted till about 10.30pm with a couple of bottles of wine. Tipsy me detoured to say good bye to Kawan at Bangsar. I finally reached home past 11pm feeling exhausted and slightly tipsy. Sleep, sleep, sleep was all I could think of.

Jumping out of bed, frantically showering and packing did not go too well with the lack of sleep and the wine from last night. We left Raj's house at 5.30pm, giggling like a bunch of school girls all the way to the airport. And guess what?! Thari made a last minute decision and decided to join us!

As we got closer to the airport, the situation was not really very funny anymore. Our flight was at 0725hours and at 0630hours we still have not reached LCCT. When we finally did reach, I jumped out of the car and ran to the check in counter. The girls brought my bags in with them while I tried to check us in. We managed to get in 45minutes before the flight left.

At Raj's House: Kavi, Jes, Thari, me

As we were Boarding the Flight

View of Phuket from the plane

I had pinched myself a couple of times when we reached Phuket International Airport just to make sure I am really there. I dont want to wake up only to find a bruise on my left arm from the pinching!

We reached the Patong Bay Garden Resort at about 9.30am. We were told that our room was not ready. So we dropped off our luggage at the hotel and happily wandered the morning streets... =)

Our Welcome Board

Patong Beach!

We walked up and down. I guess we were hoping for some Mamak stall or some Kopitiam to be open, serving us steaming hot noodles and coffee. We could have walked all we wanted, but to no avail. So we were down to either the Fancy Coffee House, McDonald's or Subway. The interesting was that Subway did not serve coffee! Blasphemy! NO COFFEE!! The Fancy Coffee House served awesome smelling coffee, but their breakfast options were all sweet, like pancakes and muffin. So we had to head down to the old faithful McD! Never to have let me down no matter which part of the world I am!

Sawadee Krap Ronald

We checked in after breakfast and rested in the room. We decided that we would like to see the Simon Cabaret that night and to take the Island hopping trip the next day.

After lunch we had a massage each by the sea. It was an unforgettable experience. The waves, the relaxed feeling, the kneading of the muscles... *sigh*

By the Beach

We were booked for Simon Cabaret that night, so after a quick dip in the sea and then the hotel room, we got dressed to the nines all ready!

Simon Cabaret was very very nice. Kudos to the effort they had put in. The costume and the props were elaborate. And the Ladyboys... My, my, what can I say about the them. They were simply stunning! There was one who looked like Barbie!

Outside Simon Cabaret

After the show, we headed back to the Patong Beach area to dinner. It was already after 12 by the time we got done and Kavi was sleeping on the dinner table! She was mumbling in her sleep about a man that had come to the office to ask for donation. When we probed further, she woke up and asked, "Did we find the horse?" Hahahaha... Horse??? What horse? That girl must have been really sleepy and tired.

Our night ended after a unsuccessful search for massage parlours that were open past midnight. Me and my sleep problem... I only ended up sleeping at about 2.30am while everyone was already dreaming of Phi Phi Island!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Phuket this friday!

Finally! I've not felt so excited over something in a long long time!


I am going there with Kavi & Jes. Thari was suppose to come but due to some complication, she cant make it. =(

We planned this somewhere in March/ April and after such a long wait, we are going there this Friday. Our flight is at 0725hours. I am so excited I dont think I will be able to sleep that night! We are gonna be there till Monday and we will be taking the last flight out on Monday! Will be reaching LCCT at about 2345.

Too bad I will be missing Raya but Raya right now is not so much of a priority compared to taking my long overdue break.

Now, I gotta go plan my packing list! =)

Thursday, September 3, 2009


~Someone told me long ago, there's a calm before the storm, I know, its been coming for some time...
I wanna know, have you ever seen the rain, coming down on a sunny day...~

I stared at the screen thinking how to put into words all that I am feeling right now. I dont know why but this song kept playing in my head all the while. I have so much I wanna say, so much I wanna do, so many emotions I wanna show... But nothing, nothing is coming out. I feel so STUCK!

I feel a whirlpool of energy inside me, waiting to burst! But outwardly, I look lifeless.

How do I get over these feelings? Is it time for a break? Away from work, partying, people, traffic, family and friends?

Boss did ask me something though, "Should you take a break, what you want to achieve from it?" Wait a minute, you mean even at a break there is something I got to achieve? Have I not strived to achieve all I can while trying to achieve all I can on a daily basis? Do I have to achieve something on a break as well?

Upon further pondering, I realised that what he meant is that by taking a break, would I really feel un-stuck? What will make me feel un-stuck?

A thought... for me to ponder further... (Yes, yes, I know. How typical of me?)

taking yam cha to the next level (day 2)

I realised while browsing through my past post that I never got to writing about Day 2 of the trip to Cameron Highland. And guess what? Now Im completely uninspired to write about it.

However, let me sum up Day 2. Basically, we got up all excited over scones. Yes, scones... I so wanted to have tea and scones for breakfast. I am going to blame that craving on my childhood ideals of being very British by having a 'cappa' tea... *wink*

So, we checked out, took more pictures around the resort and headed out to Brinchang town to find a shop that sells English Breakfast! We stuffed ourselves with Scones, Jam, Cream, Bacon, Toast, Sausages among others.

With that the trip is complete. We were ready to leave. Of course we had to stop to buy more strawberries for the journey home... =)

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

burning out =(

Im really very very very tired these days. My body hurts and my concentration span is very short.

I dont like to be in this state. I like to be in control of my actions but somehow, these days, my discipline and my concentration is waning... Sigh...

I am sort of stuck because I dont know what to do to get myself out of this situation. And I also know that I cant go on like this. I dont like this self pity nor the fact that I am not on top of my game.

How? How? How?

Monday, July 27, 2009

taking yam cha to the next level (day 1)

25 July 2009, 4.10am
Raja wakes Jo up by sounding all cheery... Jo checks time and groans. Was not suppose to be awake yet... 10 more mins, 10 more mins..

25 July 2009, 4.20am
Jo jumps out of bed. Frantically gets ready and packs. Makes mental note to pack the night before, but consoles self saying its impossible to find enough energy to pack at 2am the night before after seafood in Port Klang. Makes mental note (again!) to come back early the night before a long trip.

25 July 2009, 4.45am
(Viva La Vida ringing tone) "Jo, come down. I'm here..."
Jo grabs bags and keys and heads out. Stood near the shoe rack contemplating between sneakers or sandals.

25 July 2009, 5.00am
"Anesh! Good Morning! We are around the corner! Come down!"
"Hey, ok, ok. Give me 2 mins! Let me grab the CDs from my car"

25 July 2009, 5.08am
Anesh's 2 minutes have become 8 minutes. Still no sign of Anesh.

25 July 2009, 5.20am
Jo needs Milo n water to soothe her stomach. Beer from the night before not digested. Pit-stopped at 7-11. Jo calls AJ to inform her that the Gang is on the way.

25 July 2009, 5.45am
Picks AJ up. Cant miss AJ, especially with her bright pink handbag... AJ gets into the car groaning.

25 July 2009, 6.00am
The Gang hits the toll gate. Raja stories the others about getting the keys to the new house. The others start making plans about playing PS2/3/XBox in the new house with the 50inch TV. Jo dozes off. Obviously 2 hours of sleep is not sufficient.

25 July 2009, 7.15am
The gang reaches Tapah toll gate. Jo wakes up all bright and breezy! Raja stops car at an ol' skool Chinese coffee shop. Yummy noodles, steaming MSG free soup, fish balls and Anesh's second round later, cam-whoring begins... And so did the weekend for the Gang!

The coffee shop in Tapah

25 July 2009, 7.45am
Journey uphill began. Cameron Highland - Here we come! Along the way, Anesh mistaken a dragon fruit tree for a banana tree. A complete failure! City kids these day.. tsk, tsk, tsk.

25 July 2009, 8.30am
Morning refreshment served at the Tea Shop. Hot Masala Tea and awesome view.

The Teashop

25 July 2009, 8.50am
Waterfall excites the Gang. Stop at Lata Iskandar waterfall and took more pictures... The air was so fresh, crisp and cool...

25 July 2009, 9.30am
2nd mid morning refreshment at Healthy Strawberry Farm. The gang binged on 2 packets of strawberries and strawberry ice cream. Yummy, yummy, yummy!

Healthy Strawberry Farm

25 July 2009, 10.00am
"Eeeewww... Is that our hotel??! Y does it look so run down?? N so mahal!!" (pointing at Equitorial). The Gang decides that Equatorial is not good enough for the n thus the Hotel Hunt began

The not-so-impressive Equitorial

25 July 2009, 10.30am
Still driving up and down. Checked out Casa Dela Rosa, De La Ferns, some other hotels that we cannot recall and Strawberry Park Resort.

25 July 2009, 11.15am
Gang sitting outside Casa Dela Rosa contemplating which hotel should they choose. They are too spoilt to actually check into anything close to dodgy looking. "Does it have a spa?" Ahh... the determining factor. Strawberry Park Resort it is!

Strawberry Park Resort =)

25 July 2009, 11.45am
The gang checks into Strawberry Park Resort. Jo and Alison studies the Spa packages and price lists... Raja plans the rest of the day out and suggests places to visit. Others are agreeable. simply because 1) Raja is the Cameron pro (born and bred there); 2) others are too lazy to think

25 July 2009, 12.30pm
Yummy yummy lunch... Western food. Jo wants durian. After much coaxing, all decided we should save durian for supper.

25 July 2009, 2.30pm

25 July 2009, 3.30pm
*more snores*
*spa plans soon forgotten*

25 July 2009, 4.30pm
"Guys, is anyone else hungry?" Gang heads out for tea. Having one and a half malayalees in the gang, teatime becomes mandatory.
Tea menu: Roti canai, teh tarik, cheese tarts, apple tarts, strawberry tarts...

25 July 2009, 6.30pm
Gang heads off to steamboat dinner. Gets stuck in a jam! Yes, a jam in Cameron, due to the Pasar Malam. Gang spots durian sellers. Makes mental reminder about supper.

25 July 2009, 8.00pm
*burp* Sumptuous steamboat dinner! Gang eat like pigs. Momentary memory lapse of all diets. Heads out to Pasar Malam.

Steamboat Dinner

25 July 2009, 8.15pm
AJ buys corn; Anesh gets Appam Balik; Raja buys yam... Jo saves stomach for durian.

25 July 2009, 8.30pm
Durian shop found. Raja is elected as the designated durian expert. Picks 3 fruits. Jo savours them. Anesh stands far far away taking more pictures.

25 July 2009, 9.00pm
Raja has an awesome idea about Gunung Brinchang. The others agrees eagerly as Raja is after all the Cameron expert.

25 July 2009, 9.30pm
The drive up Gunung Brinchang began. No one imagined at that time that it was going to be the longest 20minutes of their life!

25 July 2009, 9.50pm
Many narrow paths and sharp corners laters, the Gang steps out of the car white-knuckled.
*Brrrrr... freezing*
*more cam-whoring*

25 July 2009, 10.10pm
*Drive down*
Journey seems shorter. Everyone is drowning in their own thoughts, surrounded by darkness and the revving of the engine.

Cam-whoring at Gunung Brinchang

25 July 2009, 10.30pm
Room Sweet Room. Half bottle of wine.
Gang got down to toasting our rather successful Cameron/ Yam Cha trip, amidst Rambo on TV and absolute tiredness on our faces.

25 July 2009, 11.450pm
zzzzz.... *snores*
zzzzz.... *more snores*